Pause: Summer Reflection

Ahh! It's summer!! (Yes I know, it's August 9th but it's still summer until September 21st!)

Tonight, I have the opportunity to sit and pause to reflect on the exciting events and people that has crossed my path within the past few months. This summer has been especially remarkable; I have made myself my main priority in a healthy and positive way, and I am blessed to see how far I have truly come.

Summer time is a very active season, and through close observation, of the world around and within me, one of tremendous change and expansion. I have been fortunate enough to connect with many different people, those I never knew, used to know or thought I knew. I have taken many chances, and have valuable lessons that have been applied and now I can share with others.

God (substitute your word of choice here, the Universe, Life, etc) has spoken to my heart on several occasions, and has revealed Himself in mysterious ways, through the forms of situations, and messengers . I have been able to be more attentive and receptive by staying still! A friend of mine frankly pointed out to me about month ago: "Erika, sometimes you need to sit and breathe!" Sometimes, we all move so fast (especially in NYC). We want it ALL now and with that attitude, can easily perceive that the answers to our inquiries, requests and prayers remain unanswered. I learned God's delays are not God's denials. I also learned that if I am not acting upon it, I don't believe it.

As I sit here, my eyes are closing BUT I made a commitment to write, and here I am...

And I think all I have to say in short: Slow down, Pay attention and breathe.. Your heart may be smiling and you wouldn't even know it.

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