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Boom, Boom..BAM

The birds are chirping, the sun is shining and my head is pounding. I have been caught up in the momentum and the flow of life; taking more action then I am used to a sit is increasing everyday. 

Today, I am physically less energetic then I was yesterday, but I have the ability to push myself to do what needs to get done. 

What's on my mind today? Grace and acceptance. Allowing myself to just be and giving myself the space to rest and rejuvenate.  

I've heard it's the journey that strengthens your character. Right now, I am being tested, and I have and will only get stronger. 

My anxious mind was at war with my grateful heart. I had to tell it to shut the HECK up. I have good problems, the freedom of choice. I am grateful for that. 

I am grateful for supportive loved ones..But, choices are freakin' expensive. NYC is expensive. 

The reality is you have to compromise somewhere. Compromising and settling are not one in the same. It has important for me, along my journey to be joyfully (I automatically put painfully but changed it to joyfully- ahh the beauty of writing) aware of WHY I am making the choices I am. I am embracing a new relationship with FEAR. This is the point where I would give up. 

I am a fighter. I am a survivor. I have dreams burning holes inside me. 

So here I am, caught in between who I was and who I am choosing to be. Momentum friends, saying X and doing X. Keeping my word to myself. Changing my actions. 

Financial obligations hit me at all ends. One bill..at..a..time.. BOOM..BOOM..

The room mate selection process is interesting. It's something I was afraid to do by myself at one point..And there I am, this NYC girl interfacing with strangers. It's been a rewarding experience in trusting my gut, seeing the value rent money gets you..and it scared me. I considered re-choosing my choices. 

"Life is NOW!" So here I am, instead of complaining and being overwhelmed with all that has to get done..I am attacking it, one thing at a time. 

Thank you for the supportive friends, new and old alike.. who re-mind me to continue joyfully on this journey. 

BOOM, BOOM, BAM...

With love,
Erika 



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  1. UnknownJune 28, 2012 at 9:14 PM

    Excellent! Really great reading this! Every day is a new day to do ANYTHING you want in your life. Enjoy the journey! love this:

    I am a fighter. I am a survivor. I have dreams burning holes inside me

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