Make Your Heart Smile.

I was presently surprised today when I received a compliment from an unexpected reader.  I remember why I choose to make this cheesy blog in the first place. If we are so inclined to reach for sugar or caffeine for pick-me-ups, this should be no different. Sometimes, I lose my writing mojo especially because nowadays it has been solely consumed by Academia. Fact-based writing gives me a headache. However, I've been offered yet another lesson on Resistance. I am choosing to fight against this on a daily basis. The same thing goes for my personal writing. I act like its not important to me. I come up with very creative and insightful bullshit that is very convincing, except I know it's all bullshit. While I used to be driven by the need to impress people, I am becoming more and more grounded. My heart is the leader, and it wants to deliver a message of love. My purpose is to communicate family values in an accessible way. I am all about the love. I am all heart, and

I have been trying to do a Midterm paper. Last night, while reading dense course material, tears streamed down my face. I knew why. I had to take a moment to accept and nurture myself. Today, I have been working all morning, but other triggers have been coming up.. Again, tears coming down my face. So, here I am writing this: Whether we like it or not, the world around us is changing. On the macro-level, it's global warming/climate change..With Hurricane Sandy/Winter storm back to back, what does that tell you? On a personal level, since I am evolving, so are my views. My paradigm is shifting greatly. Most of my closest relationships were rooted in people-pleasing.  I am not happy with the results I am creating. I am changing that. As I have pushed my personal growth, these past few months, fears/old beliefs and emotions from being a scared six year old girl have been emerging. It's amazing how your own body can become some sort of Indiana Jones find of the res