Make Your Heart Smile.

Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable- Philippians 4:8  On this beautiful Sunday morning, I am overwhelmed with gratitude.  Over the past three months, I have been confronting many things that have held me back, or, as I interpret it, taking up unnecessary space in my life.   It's just like cleaning up your hard-drive on your computer. Performance will be slow if there is too much operating at once, or, if your disk-space is full. Life is like this, too. Outside circumstances, people's opinions, and the outside pressures would handle me. I'd create and re-create this experience, time and time, again. Guess what? I've had enough.  There is a certain peace and flow that is able to be created. Balance. By putting myself first, I am getting less lost in the process because I trust the process.  Like the saying goes, "All Good things come to an end," I'd change

"Do you think you can handle the little kids?" The NY Cares Team leader asked me as I was writing my name tag.     "Absolutely," I responded. As I sat down at the small table of four---a library of books, tiny cubbies, and the sight of about a dozen oversized adults in tiny chairs surrounded me.       "Who's up for a challenge?" Naturally, my eyebrows raised.      "There's a hyperactive boy with a short attention span. Would anyone be willing to work with him?" My hand raised, automatically. (It seems to do that a lot lately).       "He has a lot of energy. Let us know if you need assistance." * * * *  He ran into the room like the tasmanian devil. He spun in circles and zoomed right passed me.     "What's your name?"       "D-E-N-S-KY." His eager eyes looked up at me.  His smile reminded me of when you watch someone bite into the best grilled cheese sandwich.

Hello, there! It's the start of another week. After a weekend of strong family and friend connection, I am spent.  The 49er's lost :( I am in one funky mood. I don't want to do anything. After starting school last week, not even that excites me. ( I am in awesome classes, too). In all honesty, I have this feeling I just need to to get away for a few days, in the hot sun, alone. There's something about nature that soothes me, unlike anything else. With that said, in all of this funk-a-dilly-ocious-ness, there is choice. Clearly, something is not working. Today, I choose to connect and reflect on what is and what's not working and recommit to make one choice today to forward myself. I will focus on all the beautiful things that were created over this weekend, connection  and celebration of family and friendship. As someone who comes from a HUGE family, it's a beautiful thing to witness another generation grow up and connect. In the spirit of lea