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Wow, it's been a minute since I've written it this blog.

My life has transformed from dark period where I couldn't smile for about eight months to one where smiles and laughter dominate my life.

Depression and Anxiety are real. They were the undertone of my existence throughout my 20's, I was hospitalized twice.

Through intensive Cognitive Behavioral and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, I've learned to be Now,  fully transparent with my emotions, honoring them, and improving my self-care daily.

I've become a Reiki 1 (soon to be Reiki 2) practitioner, trained in bodywork, a singer, writing, and pursuing whatever creative outlet supports healing and transformation.

My support system is AMAZING.  I will take a moment here to give some shout outs because without these people, I would not be able to be okay today.




My family: My Dad, Titi Sandy & Aunt Diane- were my Dream Team for almost two years. Thank you for the mix of TLC, tough- love and ALL the strength you lent me during that time.

My cousins/Siblings/Aunts: Ant & Vanessa, Lynn, Guy & Diana, Alanna, Chris, Tina & Mark, Tara, Titi Jean, Titi Toni-  how blessed am I that my siblings and cousins are also my best friends. so much love and gratitude for you all.

My friends: Katie, almost 8 years without you, to over a year with you- you have taught me what true friendship is about, loved me when I didn't love myself.. I love you and Jack so much.

Jessie- in almost 15+ years, you never gave up on me, always tell me the truth.. Your loyalty is a gift. I love you for it, all.

Angie: You called me every week to make sure I was okay during this past episode, I am so honored to be apart of your happiness as you marry your beloved. Thank you for loving me always for over a decade.

Stacy: my ride or die chick... Thank you for your tough love, support and for getting me the job that supports me through everything in my life. You are the Shit, and I love you so much I can't describe it!! xooxo

Denise: my sister, my oldest friend.. I am so proud of your accomplishments as a mother, and as a nurse. I will always be right beside you.

Momentum Education: 

 Willy Rodriguez: my friend, thank you for the introduction and support through the ENTIRE process.. 3 years ago.

All those who staffed Basic, Advanced and LT 90: so much love and gratitude for seeing through my bs, and loving me always.

LT90: You're all a second family. I am amazed by each of you, and about what we do together!! OXOXOXOXO

To my ex's, dates, lovers, and ALL the nurturing male friendships that have come and gone in my life: Thank you for being strong male presence, and teaching me how to be a woman, and about what I deserve.

To all My Goddesses: You know who you are, and how lucky I am to work beside the MOST amazing women that we all are. Austin/New York, one collective under the mama Kiovanna. Ya'll received me fully from day one, and that allowed me to breakthrough in ways I never thought possible. Thank you for all the love, harmonious energy, abundance, LAUGHTER that we create together on each shift. You all have a mother, friend, sister in me, always <3

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So, after that gratitude list: I will be committed to writing at least twice a month, documenting all the ways my heart is smiling. 

Until then,

Erika 

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