Goodbye 30, Hello 31.

30 has kicked my ass- but, a radical year of transformation, forgiveness, acceptance full of teachers, lessons, students and now, I am happy to the leave the fucker behind.

Here's what I walk away with, in few words, but photos.

My cousins are and will always be my best friends. Their children? my homies.

Embrace being the outsider, but always know, you belong somewhere.

Explore where you grew up- experience nostalgia fully, find beauty everywhere.

Never be afraid to stretch yourself past wherever you thought you could.

Celebrate all walks of life.

High school brought me my best friends.

Look up more!

Have a best friend who is stronger than you, pushes you and reminds you how truly special you are.

Celebrate and cherish love.

Be silly.

God, Divine has always and will always protect me.

Forgive. Learn to be a daughter.

Grieve. Remember who you are. Celebrate.

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