What a weeping heart taught me.

I am consciously on a path to healing from heart aches that I've had in my personal, romantic, professional, friendships and finally am in a place where I can see these experiences for what they are, what I tried to make them to be, and ultimately, what was right and wasn't right for me.

My heart has been weeping over the past few days- It's healing. I choose to embrace the experience, and listen to what my heart was telling me. My heart is telling me to "Let go, Be love."

I am joyfully accepting myself for my choices, and loving my mistakes because it's where I learn to be more trusting with myself.

The depth and clarity of love is so beautiful, because I am learning to follow my heart. I've had to sit with myself, embracing the pain in order to heart what I was telling myself. Although I have puffy eyes, I am facilitating my own healing. This is what I pretended not to know.

My heart wept, but it's cracking a smile. My vulnerability is my strength. We are conditioned to believe that being vulnerability is being weak. That's not the paradigm that I've ever had. In the past, I've chosen love. Now, with wisdom, I understand what love really is, what I am capable of giving and being, and am fearlessly honest.

This is the lesson I share with you.

With love and a smiling heart,

Erika

xxx

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