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Thoughts on love.


How many of us these days can say “I love you” with conviction? 

Love in and of itself is a lost commodity. 

I am guilty as charged. I love deeply and completely. It's very hard for me to let go. 
(Love here is not only romantic love) 

I am facing many of the decisions I have made over the past few years with reflection and objectivity. 

Through a variety of life experience, I can see what is of value now


I was searching for love outside of myself for years..

When I had it, I didn’t appreciate it.. 

but..

How could you love when you really don’t know what it is in the first place? 

An even important distinction for me was learning (the very hard way) that love comes from you--
from the inside. 

Loving yourself is the ability to express yourself and not hold back.  

I've been holding back my joy for a very long time.  Every wonder why fears more accessible than joy and peace?

These are some random connected thoughts that I want to connect with you, my dear reader! 

With love and blessings,
E 

Comments

  1. Arsene RemySeptember 19, 2012 at 1:17 PM

    I "love" this! When you find the source of love, nothing can stop you! Love is power. _

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